Sensory Overload

I have this need to cry.

It feels like I’ve lost already;

like the tears are welling up in my eyes, but they’re not.

It feels like I’ll fall from lack of will to stand but I don’t fall.

It feels like I’ve given up, but I haven’t.

It’s like all the sounds:

clings, clangs, bangs, whaps, chattering, yelling, bustling, more bustling, more chattering, more bustling still.

too many people touching, pulling, yanking, poking, prodding, needing;

too loud

too fast

too bright

too much - all at once: smothered.

It’s so loud all around and it feels like I’ve given up 

but they wont let me.