I'm Sorry, too

My best friend Kaitlin is in Texas and hasn't been posting so I can't see how she is and we're both so busy that we're having a hard time finding time to keep up with each other but last week she posted and I didn't see it until now.

So, I'm sorry that I haven't posted in so long, I'm going to do better.

I left England. This is the first new thing. I got back to Texas in December and am now back in Pa. England was wonderful and although I NEVER get the time to tell her, I miss Alex like I didn't know I could. So if ever you find this Al, I miss you.

Texas was good. Im' glad I got to see my mother and my Kaitie-did. Patrick got to meet my family and that was great, too.

I turned 21. Nothing interesting to report there. I don't drink in excess as it is so it didn't make much a difference.

I live with Patrick and even though I am stressed from working 45 hours a week and from going to school and from getting ready for senior year and applying for Grad schools and looking for jobs, I have never been happier. I get home, exhausted and too tired to be be thankful and I get in bed and there he is and suddenly, as if I breathed new life into my lungs, I remember how lucky I am and not just for him but for it all.

I need to lose weight. Patrick and I are doing a 6 on and 1 off vegetarian diet and I can't tell if my body is any happier with me at all. I don't have time to work out which is the problem. I think I'm going to do the same thing Kaitlin is doing and take a picture of myself every Monday with my weight in the picture. Maybe looking at it and posting it for strangers to see will motivate me or somehow subconsciously make me eat less or something. I don't know but something needs to be done. I was doing so well in England. I just need to get to a place where I am comfortable with myself again.

I have class soon or I would say more.

Like I said, I'm sorry to have been so absent and I will try harder.

See you all on Monday.

A